i can't process.

ok. so i am listening to set your goals right now. and i am having a really, really hard time connecting the fact that these sounds and voices were produced by dudes that i just fucking hung out with in real life.

lastnight:
- the usual. lots of eyecontact with joe/dan, sang with matt/jordan. amazing. danced my face off. smiles from joe that basically say "fuck yeah!" before the show even starts.
- FUCKING KIMBO!
- jumping on stage during mutiny and singing my face off with a bunch of bros
- @ the end... saying hi to jordan
me: did you see me last night?"
him: .. OH MY GOD, YEAH!
and the look on his face when he realized that i had been there 2 nights in a row was fucking astounding and so, so rewarding. chatted with him for another minute about how he felt sick & was gonna rest up. & that i'd see him tomorrow.
- "dan! see you tomorrow!" :)
- & saying hi to matt...

tonight:
- being so choked up during the fallen & our ethos that i can barely sing. never been fucking happier in my life. realizing that no one who could have been with me could have made it better.
- singalongs with all bandmembers. mic in face so many times. and fucking rocking the shit out of everyone. jesus i love this band.
- i will never be able to listen to "dead men tell no tales" again unless it runs right fucking into "mutiny."
- "so, who was there last night?" yooooo! "just you, huh?" "you're a trooper" "this song goes out to you!" LOOK CLOSER. mic in face mic in face mic in face.
- end of show - asking jordan to hangout, introductions, saying he'd be around... him trying to ignore everyone else to talk to me
- post show beer, chatting with matt, "you graduated college... something i never did!"
- talking to dan... big hugs first off, flooding in midwest, countryloving roommates, "i mean, my name's adrienne..." "i know that! from what you tweeted to me!" HOLY SHIT. BIG HUGS, BIG AWESOME.
- jordan stopping his buddies so he could give me a hug & say hi, "i have an interview to do, idk how long it'll be, but the rest of the guys will be wandering around..." LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE. me being overly flattering and admitting it and him nodding and laughing. a;lsdkgjs;dlgjsa;dlkjg
- hanging out outside for fucking ever. talking to sexy eric from smartbomb, saying hey to everyone on the tour, comeback kid leadsinger introducing himself & inviting me to the bar...
- talking to joe, glasses, providence, girlfriend, "more like a sibling relationship," hugging him & matt goodbye...
- OH. AND HOW ABOUT THE TIME THAT I WAS WALKING HOME FROM THE BAR AND THE FUCKING VAN WAS IN MY PARKING LOT. AND MK WAS LIKE, STOP IT ADRIENNE. IT'S NOT THEM. AND IT FUCKING WASSSSSSSS!!!!!! said hi to matt, junior, TM, etc. holyyyyyy shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

i love my life.